You didn’t read it until two weeks later.
Inside, your father had written down every memory he had of you as a child.
The first time you drew a house with purple windows.
The time you cried because a bird hit the kitchen window.
The night you stayed awake beside your mother during her first surgery.
At the end, he wrote:
“I forgot that being your father meant protecting your soul, not my comfort. I am sorry I remembered too late.”
You cried over that letter for an hour.
Then you put it in a drawer.
Some apologies are real.
That does not mean they erase the wound.
Damian became a constant presence in your life, but never a simple one.
He was still dangerous.
You knew that.
Men lowered their eyes when he entered rooms. Judges returned calls. Reporters avoided certain questions. His money moved like weather through the city.
You asked him once, standing on the rooftop of The White Rose Project while construction cranes moved against the sunset.
“Are you a criminal?”
He did not pretend not to understand.
“I have done things I can’t dress up as noble.”
You looked at him.
“Are you still doing them?”
His jaw tightened.
“Less.”
“That’s not an answer.”
“No,” he said. “It’s the most honest answer I have.”
You appreciated that more than a lie.
But you also stepped back.
He noticed.
“I won’t ask you to love a man you have to excuse,” he said.
Your chest tightened.
“I didn’t say love.”
His eyes softened.
“You didn’t have to.”
For weeks after that, you kept distance.
Not because you didn’t care.
Because you finally understood that attraction was not enough reason to ignore danger.
Damian respected the distance.
No flowers.
No pressure.
