She adjusted. She got good at it.
Her children called.
Adele called every few days and listened in the particular careful way that told Sylvie she was being assessed. “Mama, you sound tired.”
“I’m seventy-four,” Sylvie would say. “Tired is part of the package.”
Jeremiah called and found reasons to show up. “I’m going to be in the neighborhood Saturday. Thought I’d check the gutters.”
“My gutters are fine.”
“Mom, the last time you said that, a squirrel had taken up residence.”
Chanel called every Wednesday evening while she was making dinner, which meant their conversations were conducted against a backdrop of pots and the occasional blender.
“Did you eat today, Mama?”
“Of course I did.”
“Real food? Not toast?”
“I never said anything about toast.”
“You didn’t need to.”
They knew her too well, all three of them. She loved them for it and hid from it in equal measure. They had their father’s stubbornness and her ability to read a room, which was both a blessing and a challenge depending on which side of the table you were sitting on.
The thing she had not told them — had not told anyone — was what Dr. Evans had said at her last appointment.
What Her Heart Had Been Doing Without Her Permission, and the Card She Started Carrying in Her Purse
Last month, Dr. Evans had set down her chart with the expression of a man who has practiced delivering difficult news and still finds it difficult.
“Say it straight,” Sylvie told him. She had always preferred the plain version.
He sat down across from her. “The heart valve situation has progressed, Sylvie.”
“How much?”
“We need to schedule surgery.”
She gripped her purse in her lap. “Can we push it?”
“I wouldn’t recommend that.”
“I’m asking because I have things that need to be put in order, Dr. Evans. I know my age and I know the risk, and I am asking you as a practical question, not an emotional one.”
He looked at her with something between professional respect and personal concern. “We’re talking weeks. Not months.”
She nodded once.
In the parking lot, she sat in her car without starting it. A woman her age passed along the sidewalk with her husband, who was holding her elbow as she stepped off the curb. Sylvie looked at her hands on the steering wheel.
