My father had been denied bail after the prosecutor argued he was a danger to me and had shown willingness to violate court orders by trespassing on my property. He’d remained in county jail until trial. My mother was furious that I’d actually followed through with charges. Madison was beside herself because Chad was questioning their relationship after seeing her on camera kicking me.
Tyler was terrified about potentially losing his job at the bank if he got convicted of a crime. My father characteristically was doubling down. According to Uncle Frank, who’d visited him in jail once out of a sense of family obligation, Dad was telling anyone who’d listened that I’d provoked them, that I’d bought an expensive house just to embarrass them, that I was a spoiled brat who’ turned their back on their family.
The extended family wasn’t buying it. Most of them had experienced my parents and siblings behavior firsthand over the years. They’d watched me be excluded, dismissed, and belittled at family gatherings. The video I’d shared with my lawyer and which had somehow made its way to several family members was just confirmation of what they’d always suspected.
Christmas came and went. I spent it with Aunt Diane, Uncle Frank, and a handful of cousins. We had a quiet celebration at their house, and nobody mentioned my parents or siblings. It was peaceful in a way holidays had never been for me before. The court date was set for early September, 9 months away. My lawyer was negotiating with the prosecutor about a plea deal for Madison and Tyler, but my father was refusing to accept any terms that included admitting guilt.
Madison and Tyler were willing to plead to lesser charges, but the prosecutor wanted them to cooperate against my father, and they were torn between family loyalty and self-preservation. They’d both been released on bail with strict conditions, ankle monitors, no contact with me, and weekly check-ins with pre-trial services.
I told my lawyer I wanted to go to trial if necessary. I wanted everything on the record. I wanted a jury to see the video of my father’s hand around my throat, of Madison’s foot connecting with my ribs. I wanted the world to know what they’d done. In January, I got a message from an unknown number.
I almost deleted it without reading, but something made me open it. This is Chad, Madison’s husband. I wanted you to know that I filed for divorce. I saw the video of what she did to you and I can’t be married to someone capable of that. I’m sorry for everything you’ve been through. You didn’t deserve any of it. I stared at the message for a long time before responding.
Thank you for reaching out. I’m sorry your marriage is ending, but I understand your decision. Take care of yourself. He replied immediately. She’s been telling everyone you edited the video that it’s not what it looks like, but I know her. I’ve seen her cruel streak before. I just never wanted to admit it.
Good luck with the trial. The trial was scheduled for early September, nearly 10 months after the assault. My father had rejected another plea offer, insisting he’d been defending himself against my hysterical behavior. The prosecutor was almost gleeful. With the video evidence, he said it was one of the strongest cases he’d ever had.
The weeks leading up to the trial were surreal. I tried to maintain normaly. Going to my office, meeting with clients, attending business dinners, but the bruises on my throat took three weeks to fade completely. And every time I looked in the mirror, I was reminded of my father’s hands cutting off my air supply.
The rib pain lingered even longer. Certain movements, reaching for something on a high shelf, twisting to look behind me, sent sharp reminders through my torso. My therapist, whom I’d started seeing two weeks after the assault, said I was experiencing symptoms of trauma. Hypervigilance, she called it. I’d installed additional security measures at the estate, more cameras, motion sensors on every window, a direct line to a private security company that could have someone at my house within 5 minutes.
I knew it was excessive. The restraining orders were in place. My father was in jail awaiting trial, forbidden from having any contact with me whatsoever. But knowing something logically and feeling safe were two entirely different things. Aunt Diane visited often during this period. She’d bring dinner and we’d eat together in my kitchen, talking about everything except the upcoming trial.
She told me stories about her grandchildren, about the cruise she and Uncle Frank were planning for their anniversary, about the book club drama in her neighborhood. normal things, grounding things. One evening, she broke the unspoken rule and brought up the trial directly. “Are you scared?” she asked, setting down her fork.
