For three days, the invitation sat unopened on my kitchen counter.
On the fourth morning, my boyfriend, Andrew, picked it up.
“You don’t have to go.”
“I know.”
“But you haven’t thrown it away.”
Then the reunion invitation arrived.
“I don’t want to become a before-and-after picture.”
Andrew set the invitation down. “Then don’t go for them.”
“Who would I go for?”
“You.”
That answer landed harder than I expected.
“Then don’t go for them.”
A few days later, I bought a blue dress.
On reunion night, I sat in Andrew’s car and pulled the fabric over my stomach.
“Do you want me to drive around the block?” he asked.
“No.”
“We can go home, Leah.”
I looked at the bright entrance. “I want to go in.”
“We can go home, Leah.”
Andrew reached for his seat belt. “Okay.”
“Wait.”
He stopped.
“I’m not pushing you.”
My fingers tightened around the dress.
“I know. I want to go in because I want to stop letting 17-year-old Betty decide where 28-year-old me is allowed to stand.”
“Wait.”
Andrew nodded toward the door. “Then let’s get you inside before fear changes its mind.”
I opened the door.
At check-in, the woman found my name on the list, then looked up at me twice.
“Leah?”
“That’s me.”
Her eyes widened.
“I’m sorry. I just didn’t recognize you.”
I opened the door.
Andrew smiled.
For the first few minutes inside, no one paid much attention to me.
Then a woman in a red dress bumped into my shoulder.
“Oh, sorry!”
“No worries,” I said with a laugh.
She froze.
“That laugh.”
Andrew smiled.
I studied her.
“Sarah?”
Her mouth dropped open.
“Leah?”
“It’s me.”
Sarah called two other women over.
“You look incredible.”
“It’s me.”
“You look like a different person.”
“How much did you lose?”
“One hundred and fifty pounds,” I said carefully.
After the fourth compliment, I said, “I also learned how to change a tire last year, but no one seems nearly as excited about that.”
Andrew laughed.
“One hundred and fifty pounds.”
Sarah gave me a small, uncertain smile.
“You were always funny.”
I wondered whether she really remembered that or had simply run out of compliments.
The room started to feel too warm.
“I need a minute,” I told Andrew.
The room started to feel too warm.
“Comfort, honesty, or five quiet minutes?” he asked.
“Five quiet minutes.”
“I’ll be near the desserts.”
I headed for the restroom.
That was where I found Betty.
She stood at the mirror, adjusting an earring.
“Five quiet minutes.”
Ten years had changed her, but not enough to make her difficult to recognize.
Her hair was shorter, and there were fine lines beside her eyes. However, she still carried herself as though the room would move around her.
