Eli was supposed to be tired on Sunday evenings.
That was always the explanation Vanessa sent home with him.
Too much screen time.

Too much sugar.
Too much attitude.
Too much of me letting him feel safe for forty-eight hours, though she never said that last part out loud.
I had learned to read the spaces between Vanessa’s words a long time ago.
During our marriage, she never yelled when other people were in the room.
She folded anger into calm sentences.
She could make a threat sound like a concern.
By the time we divorced, she had mastered the kind of softness that made everyone else lean toward her and away from me.
So when her gray SUV rolled to the curb in front of my house that Sunday evening, I already expected a little tension.
I expected a backpack tossed too hard onto my porch.
I expected one of her tight smiles.
I expected Eli to be quiet for an hour before he became himself again.
I did not expect him to walk toward me like every step hurt.